The fall where I broke my glasses and bruised my rib was a month ago tomorrow. I’ve been doing Nymbl practice for a few days short of a month now. I’ve used every miracle advantage on my fancy and expensive Mickey Mouse watch. I have learned to love it and rely on as a useful tool.
Last week I went to my first physical therapy which was an evaluation for the therapist to see what I needed, so it was kind of odd. I didn’t want to go. I spent a lot of time there after my hip surgery 4 years ago. But the therapist and I talked about the power of fear over our ability to move forward (ha ha) in life and that struck a chord with me because I have definitely been afraid. Today we talked about that a little more and I told her about Nymbl. She checked it out and was really impressed by it.
Today was a real work day and she worked me pretty hard, taking me through a routine of movement I realized I have unconsciously avoided — including lunges. I have severe arthritis in both knees — it doesn’t hurt, but no one wants to hear the sound that arthritic joints make when they’re working. Basically, I did a bunch of lunges in front of a parallel bar along with the one-legged guy who is learning to walk.
I like working with him nearby somehow. I know he’s a nice guy, stoical enough and with a sense of humor. Today they had to take off his prosthesis and adjust the flex in the foot. He then proceeded to take a step forward and a step back. ❤
I got home with only one thought. Those falls were not bad for me. They have taken me exactly where I need to be. As I worked I realized how I have protected myself as a result of joint damage, joint replacement, falls. Without knowing it, I’ve limited myself out of the fear of the pain that all those things have caused in my life. Those experiences were real and there’s no way to guarantee there won’t be more, but that self-limitation — of which I’ve been unaware — has caused its own problems.
My therapist is a rodeo rider, goat-roper, cattle roper and barrel racer. I respect that so much. A lot of people have negative view of rodeo, but (outside of bull riding) I’ve seen all those skills actually USED in real life. Barrel racing shows the incredible bond between horse and rider. Anyway, a physical therapist who is an athlete? For me, that’s a good thing.