Concussion Comments

Today I finally feel a little bit like myself. Really three days isn’t a very long time, but it’s amazing how a blow to the head — not even a major one — can knock a person out of the game for a few days. Being on the literal cusp of 68, I can no longer say, “That’s not me” when Dr. Google says, “Recovery from even a minor head injury takes longer for elderly people.” I just accepted the advice of the Mayo Clinic and rested. I didn’t push through anything even though my golf course has been groomed for Langlauf and I really want to go. I also accept that things could still go wrong. The good thing about a black eye is that when one has one, one isn’t all that interested in meeting the public. It’s better, but it’s at the icky brown technicolor stage…

I also had an epiphany while I was riding The Bike to Nowhere. The situation in my country is, to me, sad and scary but no one is listening to me about it. I can push and tweet and post and speak out all I want but the world in which I live is absolutely NOT the world I worked toward all my life. It seems my fellow country-people wanted something else completely. People bitch about the decline of democracy but his egregiousness was elected by a process that is, essentially, democratic (though flawed) and his supporters love him.

I am not “at one” with the “spirit of the age,” and that being the case (not surprising) I can best use the remaining years, months, days whatever of my little life living that little life undistracted. I have paintings to paint. Skis to take out. Dogs to walk. Maybe that’s not much, but it seems to me that one more happy person in the world is not a negligible contribution.

33 thoughts on “Concussion Comments

  1. Sorry you took a nasty blow to your head. Taking it easy is a good plan, and I love your outlook, we need more happy people in this world!

  2. Great attitude. I intentionally watch political programs if any kind and concentrate on my dog ,plants and house although if I awaken in the middle of the night it sometimes takes an Ambien to be able to shut down my mind and go back to sleep.

  3. If I’ve said it once, I’ve said it so many times that people probably roll their eyes now: I focus on KC’s world only…that’s all I have (some) control over and it makes me more content/satisfied NOT getting sucked into the evil vortex.

  4. I feel like I’ve been bludgeoned daily. Even when I’m trying NOT to think about it. The fires in Australia, like the fires in Montona and California and other places, terrify me. This comment is way too long for a comment, so I’ll write about it on my site.

    You really got me thinking.

  5. β€œCivilization is a stream with banks. The stream is sometimes filled with blood from people killing, stealing, shouting and doing things historians usually record; while on the banks, unnoticed, people build homes, make love, raise children, sing songs, write poetry and even whittle statues.” Will Durant

    This has been a quote that I keep coming back to over the years. We make the world better just by living our ordinary lives in spite of the mayhem going on at a different level. It looks like you’ve reached the same conclusion. Get well soon, paint some pretty pictures and take care while skiing and riding bikes. Happy New Year. xo J

  6. Never underestimate the value of being a role model, even when you don’t realize you’re being one. Lead by example. Be happy, be moral, be ethical, and maybe, just maybe, some will follow.

  7. I’m glad to read that you’re feeling even better, now. You ARE being read, Martha, and your words CAN affect what other people think and what they DO. Enjoy life, but don’t give up on speaking out! I agree with Rebecca about the value of being a role model…

  8. Gosh, I get this. A part of me just can’t get to the mountains soon enough so that I can become a full-fledged hermit. I just want to hang out and hike with my dogs and read books and eat really good food and drink really good wine and write my heart out on paper. But at the same time, i can’t give up yet. I still have hope. I know there are still good people out there (like you) who care and who want a different world.

    • I was very happy when I finally got to the mountains with my dog and got to live the life of a semi-hermit (hanging out only with nice people who like me and whom I like) and walk and enjoy the incredible beauty of Heaven and write the stories I’ve waited for and that have ripened all these years. ❀ I wish I could have Liberty Bell.

  9. I think that with enough happy people all the frightened people will calm themselves and maybe, just maybe sanity will return… Hope your shiner is faded away and you avoid any mishaps inside and outside!!

    • I like your philosophy. I’ve doubled down my determination after the news today. The shiner is fading and tomorrow I expect to go ski. πŸ™‚

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