Nothing to Fear, but…

In response to The Daily Post’s writing prompt: “Fright Night.” What’s the thing you’re most scared to do? What would it take to get you to do it?

Fear. I’m afraid of knee surgery — not the surgery (I’ll be out) but the whole rehab and recovery that will take months. How am I going to do stuff like get dog food? I’m afraid some necessity will cause me to damage the new joint. How about that? I’m afraid of slipping on ice with the new joint before it’s totally healed. These are legit fears. I’m also afraid of dating — this is fear based on experience, so it warns me not to do it. I’m afraid of being bitten by a rattlesnake when I’m out there on a trail by myself — this is a reasonable fear that tells me to watch where I’m going but YOU might think it means don’t go alone. Reasonable fears — the list goes on and on. But this response won’t because I have a lot of stuff to do today and I’m AFRAID I won’t finish.

19 thoughts on “Nothing to Fear, but…

  1. It is the fear of what could happen that is the fear you always have. I might fall down, I will fall down, I have done it often. Relying on others is something I hate, I want to be able to do it all by myself – don’t we all.

    • Relying on others is difficult. I am going to have to and it’s hard for me to believe anyone would really WANT to help me out. That’s nuts, but it’s my neurosis, I guess.

      • I would be there for you, if I wasn’t so far away. I have Mr. Swiss, but if something happened to both of us at the same time, we would be at a loss and I also dislike on depending on others.

  2. That rehab would scare me, too. Every time I have some major surgery, I dread the afterward and recovery. But so far, so good. I’ll just suggest your concerns are real and sensible, so see if you can get your ducks in a row, people to lend a hand at hauling groceries and whatever other stuff you won’t be able to do for a while. A good friend of mine had that surgery about a year ago. He’s fine now, not even a limp. But the first couple of months were rough.

    • that’s what I’ve heard. I’m worried about real stuff — groceries and dog food. I found a kid to clean the walks. I might need rides to physical therapy — unless it’s a big a joke as the post-hip surgery PT was. I think I’ll know a LOT more when I get out of the hospital. I hope.

  3. Very funny. I’m afraid of my own shadow, just about and I’ not happy if I have nothing to worry about. But gradually I’m letting go of stupid stuff.

    How does that old saying go? “There is nothing to fear but fear itself.”

    My kids say I’m a irrational and a nut case. Nothing like two adult kids to tell their mother that she is nuts.

    I think you’ll do fine with surgery but I also think you had better line up somebody that you can pay to get your groceries and dog food.

    • I’m afraid a lot more than most people ever know. But…my aunt Martha said to me one day, “Don’t be afraid, don’t let fear control you, don’t be like your mother.” I was 20 at the time. I never forgot that — she was so earnest and adamant. So I just figure I’m going to be scared. I’m very shy but I get out there, but I’ve developed enough to be able to walk away if something doesn’t work — but that scares me too. I completely understand. I remember one day hiking with two dogs — a wolf/husky mix, Ariel, and a chow/sheltie mix, Mathilda — and I encountered some other women on the trail. They were terrified of mountain lions. They said, “Aren’t you afraid to hike alone?” I wondered how I was alone considering I had with me the equivalent of two loaded guns and I also realized I was more afraid of being afraid to hike alone than I was afraid to hike alone. It was a strange moment.

      I think you’re right about hiring help — I’m going to have to. My friends here have offered all kinds of help and I’ll rely on them but I don’t want to be a burden to them, either. I have lined up a kid to keep the walks clear if it (when it) snows. It will. They say six weeks and you’re pretty normal — well, that’s Christmas. Three months and you’re fine — well that’s mid-February. I’ve also found a young woman I can pay to walk the dogs. They like her and so do I. 🙂 I got new hiking shoes and I tried them on today. They’re my Star to shoot for.

      • I’m relieved to read your reply. Do use the folks that have offered to help. If it makes for better friends then pay them as well. I’ll bet some of them will not take any money. I’m glad that you are optimistic about getting good results from your surgery. Keep those shoes in viewing range and that should keep you inspired as you rehab. 🙂

  4. I hear you, Martha. My independence gets in the way of a lot–but that’s the way I am. You’ve been through this before with your hip, so you know what to expect. I think you will be fine–having others help you be fine…..that’s a whole ‘nother story! I would so help if I could–sunny thoughts from FL headed your way.

    • I am beginning to get my mind around the fact that after the surgery the thing will start healing and getting BETTER. The hip wasn’t as big a problem as I imagined it would be and I hope the same is true of this. Anyway, it will be what it is and I’ll do the best I can. Sunny thoughts welcome ANY time. Thank you.

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