Alles Geben/Daily Prompt “No Cigar”

Daily Prompt: But No Cigar: January 16, 2014 Tell us about a time things came this close to working out… but didn’t. What happened next? Would you like the chance to try again, or are you happy with how things eventually worked out?

Most things in my life have been “close but no cigar.” I’ve missed more boats than I’ve caught. Maybe most of us do. I’ve been teaching full time as a part time teacher for more than 35 years. Several times I’ve tried to get a full-time gig, but whatever these colleges were looking for in a full-time colleague/professors was NOT me. Over and over and over I made it to the final rounds (the inner sanctum of a college president) to be passed on. In a couple of instances, the dean turned around and asked ME to train the full-time teacher they had hired instead. Am I God’s gift to teaching? Probably not, but that was awful… 😦

Am I glad things turned out the way they did? That’s a dumb question. I live in reality. NOT being “glad” about it is just masochism. I’ve had many friends in the same situation and bitterness over this made some of them sick and killed a couple. What’s the point in that? As for the chance to try again? No. After trying several times, I don’t think that there’s any point. There’s wisdom in that little axiom, “Make the best of what you have.”

There was once a philosophy professor at the university where I teach who used to say to his students, “What do you mean ‘it’s not fair’? FAIR is for soccer!”

I think he was right. Fair or not, colleges and universities benefit financially from hiriing part-timers over offering tenured positions. Tenured positions are expensive to schools and (possibly) not all that cost effective. I realized it wasn’t my business to think about whether that was “right” or “wrong.” My business is to keep working so I can maintain my life. After “coming close” to getting a “real” job several times, I began looking differently at my life. It’s mine. I began to regard being a part-time teacher as being a free-lance teacher. I could (to some extent) choose my jobs. I could put my heart and soul into my work for the good of my students and my immortal soul. I love teaching; I was/am/have been teaching.

Goethe was a big help in this (as in many other things). “Hold your powers together for something good and let everything go that is for you without result and is not suited to you.” In Conversations with Eckermann

And sometimes…a cigar is just a cigar and getting what you want isn’t much, after all. OR ““More tears are shed over answered prayers than unanswered ones.”  Truman Capote

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  9. Sayang* | aportraitingrayscale
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  12. Sometimes A Loss is a Win | THE OVERCOMING
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  14. ‘Heneghan’ hope… | alienorajt
  15. Cannibal | Shadows Of The Divine
  16. Nearly there | A mom’s blog
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  18. The Close | L5GN
  19. Close Protection at La Bonne Mère | Travel with Intent
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  35. Positive Energy | Broken Light: A Photography Collective
  36. “Quiniela” | Life is great
  37. Sometimes a Cigar is just a Cigar | I really just pretend to know stuff
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11 thoughts on “Alles Geben/Daily Prompt “No Cigar”

  1. Quite likely all of those position were already picked. They were just going through the motions to make the hiring seem legit. I remember watching as many were interviewed for this “director” office for a satellite college campus. These people spend money to come from across state for the interview not knowing they did not have a chance. I was told this by a number of professors and staff. Fair or not, who you know is worth more than what you know.
    I have always felt for the non-tenure teachers but tenure they can have stress of their own by since tenure professors have to fulfill certain requirements, which include publishing. Greater emphasis is placed on research than teaching. I have, for the most part, had better learning experiences with adjunct professors.

    • Thanks for commenting! There are a lot of factors completely outside the applicants’ control, that’s for sure.

    • Sarah, Goethe’s my friend and mentor. He goes with me everywhere. He is a wonderful guide. Fortunately for me, he lived a long time and wrote constantly, it seems.

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